16 years of life. 192 months old. 834 weeks alive. 5844 days lived. 

Found my old diary from when I was 6, theres a page with a list of things I wanted to do by the time I was 16. Gosh I was so young, like who really wants to learn to ride a unicycle by the time they are sixteen! Ahah

Well here is the list

- Don’t die

- Be beautiful

- Learn to handwrite

- Go to a school dance

- Grow pillows on chest(ok so I think I meant grow boobs…yes,makes some sense lol)

- Date a football player….(Got that one from watching too many high school movies)

- Have first kiss

- Make mummy proud

- Be a cheerleader

- Meet someone famous

- Learn to play an instrument

- Go on a date with a really cute boy

- Go to France

I think I suffered from serious issues as a child…. some of the things on the list are just weird. Well so I crossed odd everything I’ve done & I think 6 year old me would be proud of 16 year old me :)

- Don’t die

- Be beautiful

- Learn to handwrite

- Go to a school dance

- Grow pillows on chest(ok so I think I meant grow boobs…yes,makes some sense lol)

- Date a football player….(Got that one from watching too many high school movies)

- Have first kiss

- Make mummy proud

- Be a cheerleader

- Meet someone famous

- Learn to play an instrument

- Go on a date with a really cute boy

- Go to France

Done everything but 2 things, I’ll do those later on in life. I’m finally 16,I’m gonna make it a great year cause you only turn 16 once & well YOLO

A girl was born, she grew up shy & quite, she learned to be very independent because she always knew that in life you can only count on yourself. 

On the outside she was decent looking, people enjoyed being around her, she had good grades, she had a great family, and she found fulfilment in making others smile.  Her goals were to make the world smile. 

But nobody knew… nobody really knew what laid behind those brown eyes. Nobody knew that there was little happiness behind her smile. 

No one knew that the girl with the cheerful smile had died long ago… She had been laid to rest long ago. 

Her spirit left behind, left to wander and roam until she found her happiness. 

Her heart beating in the shadows, it searched for the light that would bring her back to life. 

…. frustrating as hell!